I am a severe depression patient. At the worst of times, I nearly bid farewell to this world. Thankfully, after enduring for a long time and finding relief, my consciousness has stabilized, but I still don’t know what I’m doing now. My life has been through ups and downs, even passing through the gate of death. Now, I feel that nothing is more important than life. Below is my experience, hoping that my story can bring a ray of help to those in the midst of depression.
My depression is officially called “Bipolar Disorder Without Psychotic Features Severe Depressive Episode.” Bipolar disorder patients swing between two extremes – sometimes manic and sometimes depressed. During manic episodes, there is endless energy, while during depressive episodes, self-harm or harm to others may occur.
My depression may have been triggered by emotional issues. It wasn’t sudden; it was a combination of many things. I don’t know when it started, but a voice in my head always made my emotions highly unstable. My relationship with my parents is also not good; I tend to lose my temper over a word or a look. I became more and more timid, unwilling to see people. Eventually, my brain seemed to rust, unable to think or function.
Later, after a series of tests in the hospital, I was finally diagnosed with depression. The doctor emphasized the need for medication. At first, I was worried, but the doctor’s instructions were followed. After taking the medication for two weeks, my mood improved. This effect made me believe the doctor was right. During the follow-up, the doctor said my condition had improved a lot and advised me to continue the medication until the end before the next visit.
During this time, I consulted many psychology enthusiasts online, including many former depression patients. Two individuals greatly assisted me throughout my entire treatment process, always encouraging and using their own experiences to guide and cheer me on. If you are also a depression patient, please believe that in the lonely road, you are not alone.
Now, I dare not say that I have completely overcome depression, but it rarely surfaces now, and I am very satisfied with my current state. I read and run every day, and my mood is very joyful each day.
This is my story.
